Little bit…Dream!?

It's been ages not updating my blog. OK! Let's start!

This week until next week will be my final examination week. That's mean I'll go back to my country in no time. Feel happy because I go back to my country and will meet with my friends in my home university but I also will miss my friends in Japan. I've been here almost 5 months, met with lots of people overseas, it's great isn't it? Yeah it's great; I learn how to deal with people with different culture. Sometime it's difficult for me to deal with them because we have a different culture and sometime language also become barrier for us. But, I really can't believe I have been here for 5 months long. For me, it's like I came to Japan yesterday and tomorrow I have to say goodbye to my friends. We just start to know each other, it looks like we start understand our friend a little and getting closer but we have to leave soon. But yet, I feel happy because I met them. I'm happy have this opportunities, I'm happy because I can come here to Japan after 5 years waiting and hoping every day. This was my high school dream and I promised that I'll go to Japan before I graduated from university. I thought it was impossible until I tried it in my second year in university. Yeah, I think it was impossible for me. I have tried my best to go here but I always felt it's impossible or I didn't have enough qualification. There were some ways I have tried. First, I try to focus on my study. But, not long enough I felt it's impossible because I didn't have a good grade. Then, I start to study music and hope I have some competency in music, go to music festival and if I can make it, I will be send to Japan as a representative. But, my music skill stuck in intermediate level because I don't have a good hearing in musical notes. Once again, gave up. I started to give it up completely in my last year in high school. But, I don't know why I can't forget it even a little. My hope and dream was still as clear as before I thought to give up.

After that, I change my mind. I start to focus in my study again. This time, I did that not to get the best grade. I saw myself always try to catch up with everybody without knowing what I really have. I always want to learn what the others can do. But, it's too much, isn't it? It's not easy though. When I thought that I asked myself am I running away? And I never get any answer for my question. But now I relieved that I stop being a human who always want to skilled everything. If I do that, I really running away from myself.

What I want to tell is we must honest to ourselves. We really have something different than others. We have something that nobody has. Even a little it'll be our precious treasure. After said this all, don't think my path will be straight and smooth because I still not find my treasure yet. There's still a long way for me to find it and I want to say "Let's we do the best for it!"